Espionage

Well well 2007 will dawn in a few hours …. And in about 60 days from now dad retires……after more than 35 years of service in the ministry of home affairs GOI……………

Well what work did dad do.. He was a spy………..his forte was espionage… spying on politicians, commies, trade unionists, all public servants and what not.. also the separatists……….hmm one helluva job……I never got the air of what he was up to until I personally started my spying on him… and in the end I discovered the web of the complex structure and responsibilities of the SIB Subsidiary Intelligence Bureau of the ministry of home affairs Government of India….The premier police organisation of the country responsible for internal security …the SIB spies on any Goddamn thing.. needless to say that the foreign nationals were the most frequent targets…..well the better part of his job was in the last 5 years of his career where he moved on to a predominantly desk job in the Bureau Of Immigration, 90% of whose staff are drawn from the ranks of the SIB..

I shudn’t be saying that my dad worked for SIB or what he did but I chose to say after a Joint Director of IB called MK Dhar wrote a book on IB and its role in operation black thunder..(the one after Blue Star cmon don’t say u dunno Operation Blue Star I will write abt it later )

So dad was so passionate abt IB that he still feels that theres no alternative to HUMINT ( Human Intelligence )
The same sentiment is reflected in a book See No Evil by a CIA Case officer Bob Baer.
Dad still is angry about the fact that VP Malik had blamed the IB squarely for Kargil. As he says though it was IB s mistake there have been cases where Army ignored valuable advises by IB.

What good did IB do to me. Well well dad was mostly into counter terrorism and counter separatism braches also he extensively covered elections so my political knowledge grew..i was following elections from 1994 
He never spoke all this at home but I used to catch bits and pieces of it when he spoke to colleagues
Later when some one called on the phine they used t say that his voice and my voice was similar and used to tell something’s to me 

For a while he did boring desk jobs and spying on ppl doing bckgrnd checks.. like verifying judges and stuff..
Then I realised that no matter how trivial is the job u gotta have the same passion.. same as the one echoed by the character playin priety’s dad in lakshya.. ek ghass kaatnewala bhi bano toh acha gaas kaatnewaala bano
(Even if u bcom a grasscutter make sure that ure the best… )
The same sentiment is echoed by Bernard Focker in meet the Fockers (Dustin Hoffman) when he says to Jack Byrnes (De Niro) We just taught him to be passionate and love anything he does..

Dad showed the way to me a long time before….he cudnt stand people predominantly doing desk jobs manages high up the IB ladder.. same sentiment by Bob Baer too..

As I read the book I just compared an Indian and an American who had the same job profile..

And mentioned here is an Ode to not only my dad, but ,to all those IB people who work hard and take the same risk as the army guys… but noone notices em as noone is supposed to notice bcos their duty is to remain under cover......


Salutes to the unknown dads and bros in the IB and the RAW

kabul fiza

I suddenly thought that i would see a muvee and went to see kabul xpres....

A very decent muvee... 2 hr movie with no songs is a rarity in bollywood where karan johar makes mega serials naming them beginning with K letter phrases.. if the title itself is half a km long , imagine the muvee length... But mind you i like em too...

Now back to kabul fiza.. two rookie journos from India lookin for a scoop in Kabul.. with a proud Afghan , an adventurous reuters lady and a Taliban ( originally a Paki Soldier ) who wants to escape to Pakistan...

Well a nice story showing some comical realities abt Afghanistan.....

A donkey as compared to a fidayeen is a cool one...

This is one goody Indian muvee that bashes pakistan lie hell without kashmir topic...


It shows ho Afghanistan is ravaged by the war using some beautiful dialogues as props...

And shows that how Pakistan is confused on its own men.. It betrayed its own men in kargil and also its own army who acted lie taleban......

The irony in afghanistan is beautifully presented when the afghani guy says taleban banned Bhuskashi bcos its a VIOLENT game..........

In the end the muvee shows abt islam and Inidan muslims when the pakistani comments'Suhel saab namaz nahi padhoge? oh hindustani musalman ho tum kya jaano mazhabkya hai?' ( mr Suhel dont u pray ? oh u r an Indian muslim how wud u know abt Islam?

Suhel replied' Haan aap hi ne mazhab ka tekha le rakha hai.. bazu meih AK -56 rakh ke dua
karte ho' ( Yeah true you have the rights to relegion.. as i see u pray with an AK-56 by ur side)

That was a fitting answer.......and in the end it shows how Indians make him escape from the Afghans who want to lyunch any Taleban(or pakistani army ).................

hamara Bharat mahan.. also Bharatvasi yede hote hain( India is great and Indians are stuoid including me )
We are an emotional lot.....


A nice prop in the muvee is a song from Dev Anand's Hum Dono 'Main Zindagi ka saath...' .. this song is enjoyed by both pakistani and teh inidan jurnos much to teh annoyance of the Afghan.........

one more link is Dev anand is from Lahore in pakistan...........

i really pity pakistani army :-)


over all a nice muvee and different view of Afghanistan after Kite Runner .................

hmm i wud luv to see more Indian muvees like this.......it can be definitely India's nomination to Oscars........if it doesnt win then the jury is stupid.............. hahaha....

ME Time

Someone was asking me the other day as to whether i have some time dedicated to do something i like...... I told him that every now and then i try to find ME time.. in the ME time i just dont care abut anyone else. i skip calls deliberately..... dont log on to the net and worst just donttalk with anyone......when i was living alone in pune having a ME time was not difficult.. it meant just disappearing all of a suuden w/0 telling anyone... but out here in lonodn with no possiblity of taking much leaves, having a ME time sounds difficult. But yeah i did have my share of ME times here.. the best thing to do here in a ME time is to sit in a bus and start exploring ......


what pleasure does a ME time give me.. i just relax and dont think about anything no work no money.. and NOT EVEN my list of fav GALS..... :-) its all about a kind of meditataion and observation.... just staring at an arbitrary person to see what he/she does in the time frame that i stare..............................


the ME time refreshes me and at the end i guess i am relaxed and ready to face this adrenaline pumping job....

Dad said that IT would be suitable for ME??? i realise after 4 yrs that after all being involved in Busineess supprt grops in a monstrous investment banking firm is not the lucrative job or SUITABLE job... where fire fighting is the buzzword on most days...................

I am looking forward to get into another role where i can think normally and not think always to handle a crisis............ i will find that kahin duur kayi mahine baad.....

my name is borat

well i happened to see the movie Borat: Cultural learnings of America for make benefit glorious nation of Kazakhstan..( For those who think that only Karan Johar names his films in phrases...)

its a satirical comedy about a fictional character Borat a televoision journalist from kuzeck in kazakhstan(wonder whether kazakhstan has kuzeck) .. Sacha Baron Cohen, a Cambridge grad is the creator of Borat....

the movi offends an entire natio n so much that Kazakh president nazarbayev has dashed to US to meet Bush and ban the film..

well whats the movie about? Its a mockumentary about learnings of Borat in US and A.
The Kazakhi information ministry commissions Borat to make a movie on US and A for the benefit of glorious nation of Kazakhstan(This man is so ridiculous.. yje movie is too obscene and pungent and spreads hatrrd)
Please see the movie if it not success I execute is Borat's request.

Borat is depicted as a male chauvnist, sexist, racist and what not and he says he is normal kazakh.
Kazkah wine is made of fermented hrse urine(Shucks .. dangerous imagination and creativity)
Since nobody cared about Kazakhstan, the selection of has been ggod now google and wikipedia are busy with hits on Kazkahstan, Almaty and Astana...

as per Borat he does not know Cohen and he supports the decision of his goverment to sue that Jew(incorrigible)
He also says that premier Nazarbayev has visted the US and A to promote his movie...

Dont know what went in his mind to mock at a whole nation .. He mocks as Uzbecks, Jews , Gypsies adn who not...

Imagine what wpuld have happened had he chosen India or for that matter any Arab country as his theme....

people may have hundred opinions but the bottomline is the movie is No1 in US & UK the chash resgisters are ringning and soon we may see Borat in Europe( he says he didnt get European visa due to his sex crime record and he has managed to prove that the horse was above the age of consent and hence can get a visa!!!!!).. also we might see other RATS from other lesser known countries and even bollywood might try Munnabhai in this role with lesser obscenity(rather more as Mallika wud be thr)....

boy Borat did intrigue me .. i spent two days on Kazakhstan reserach and in general reading about the former SSRs. Though all have gone off my mind....

dont know whether Borat will be banned or not but hes created a wave...

and Borat s tooped teh charts in america.. he wants to celebrate now ..

150 din des se baahar

Last week Santosh Singh was awarded a death sentnce.. fucker deserved it veery bit 10 yrs ago.. some moronic sessions judge vindicated him and it has taken a campaign and a media galore by NDTV to indict him again....

Now all those human rights sum bitches are in a tight loop... if those morons say no to death of the bastard Mohd Afzal.. then as per their viewpoint same treatment should be given to Santosh....i dare say if Santosh can be hanged for killing only one person, Afsal should be stoned to death for killing innocent security personnel... i would have campaigned for his clemency had he killed one politician at least......

Keeping in lines with older murder caess, Jessicaa Lall case will be closed soon.. And this old fart Ram jethmalani is all set to defend him..

Thanks to Vidhu Vinod Chopra and Rajkumar HIrani, the protest against Oldie jethmalani will eb different people are gonna send him boquets and smses asking him to get well soon.. well that would be fun.. the old bum should not be peaceful....

along with manu sharma, Shayan munshi(fucking bartender model who was a witness but is hostile now), bina ramani(socialtie bitch and owner of the restaurant) should also be hanged...
well a policeman's job is the toughest in the end.......

back home in TN some crappy politicians are asking the Indian govt to give visa and educate the child of Rajiv's murderers... These people will never change.. Agreed that the child has no fault but India should not encourage such things....

Anotonia Maino aka Sonia has a golden chance again to prove that shes a saint....
She would infact welcome teh child herself before the media yto increase her govt's approval rating........

Finally ICC says that the BCCI should not be content on being just the richest borad.. it should show performance on the field... thats all bull shit...

Whoever wins whatever CUp India will do good and whenever it does good , its cricketers will earn popularuty and mint money more than anyone else and BCCI will ever be the richest.. so who cares a damn if Aus or WI win the champions trophy???

Sachins still the best ....

the most murky thing was the murder of a DIG in Orissa.. some say his bodyguards shot him
some say maosists shot him... what the hell? did this guy unearth a scam due to which he was executed?? hmm hope someone finds it...


I like Navin Patnaik so i pray Orissa makes some real progress under him.....

With more states going to elections next year it will be fun.....

CAT is back with a bang.. hmm some people do anything to get an MBA....just an MBA or MS is the buzzword in India these days.. no wonder i am as good as an illeterate as i have neither of these and am still stickin to the job that I got in campus...

Bangalore is Bengalooru hmmm it has got a status after following the lines of Bombay, Madras and Calcutta... err.. Mumbai Chennai n Kolkata when will India be remaned Bharat? or BaharatVarsha??

DMK created a record of sorts by capturing power at all layers of democracy.. Federal minsters, State legislature and now the local bodies... well MK can die in peace now...

Jaya can hope an emphatic comeback as she can sit home blame DMK for any Goddman thing and have a cake walk in the next elections.. who knows if MK ne jaldi kulti mari toh(means if he kicks the bucket earlier ) she can hope an early comeback and behave nonsensecally and get blasted in the media thereby damaging the tamils all together....

amdst all these pandemonium i have quetly completed 150 days.. 5 months in Her Majesty's realms....Long live the Queen for keeping me here so long and long live my managers also...

i had counted days expecting ti get back to my bastion in pune, (err do I have a bastion there nopes ifi go back i am lord of the gutters as my mom had vacated by house) I got to know that i have to count 60 days more... shucks!!!!!!!

Finally i have decided to loose the count and enjoy by exploring Enger Land more......

Soldier way

For the past week there seems to be a difference in the UK. for a change we have a different sort of man making the news. Its not a politician or actor or rockstar or some watrel celebrity. Its the commander of the UK army Gen Sir Richard Dannatt.

He has sopken out breaking the protocol of serving army chiefs in democratic countries..(Dont say Pakistan is democratic.. it fucking never was one, and never will be .......also dont consider Soonthi Bonyaratglin of Thailand)

What he said was that the presence of british troops in Iraq exacerbates security problems in UK and also that the British Troops are unwelcome in Iraq.

This is a true statement indeed. Its been almost 3 GodDamn years since the holy shit in Iraq began and I beleive he has every right to say that .

He also felt that the morale of the troops is coming down because of this .. true indeed..

As usual the labour party is irritated and issuing clarifications and statements against him.

Former minister in Blair's cabinet Blunkett has gone a step ahead and called for Sir Richard's resignation... Mr Blunkett is an idiot...

The PM Sopkesman however has tried to cover things up by saying that Sir Richard reflected government policy and troops will be out in 2-3 years(What the fuck??? they have been saying this for too long)
Generally many people feel that a serving chief should not have said this.. why???

I feel he had every right.. because it is his men dying in Iraq for no reason or whatsoever...

Imagine how would you feel if tomorrow Gen JJ Singh comes up saying that the farcicial dialogues and ceasefire with Pakistan is all crap n bullshit...... I am waiting for that day....

Cause u ask army to die for you and dont even let us know what they feel?? crap aint it??

cmon Gen Jaswant Joginder Singh I want to hear you speaking that Gulam Nabi Azad's & Farooq Abdullah's clemency plea for Mohd Afzal is a farce..

Azadsumbitech was the first to be carried out safely on 13 Dec 2001 when Sansad bhawan was attacked..
And does anyone remeber constable Kamlesh Kumari who was the first to die saving these arse holes???...

If Afzal is given a lifer some mutterfucka will hijack another ferkin plane and ask for his release...

i can still remeber kandhar IC812.... and a young married fella being killed .. Mazood Azhar is still at large and Gulam Nabi Azad's suckin party says the GOI did a wrong thing by releasing Azad then.. I say GOI had no other go...

Now they say spare Afzal....how dare they... just to get some ferkin muslim votes...

Guts!!!!!!!!

Well I had real fun yesterday evenening..... some of my colleagues arrived at London from India..
I was waxing eloquent to one of them about the potential safety threats in SE London and told him that "Make sure that you are not alone after a certain time during night"......

What happened was after was fun. At around evening 7 pm i had set alone to meet another friend of mine who was staying in a hotel.. the place was a petit place at Ilford in Essex...

The moment I stepped into the road in which the hotel was located, I realised that it was DESERTED!!! and no street lights !!! The entire surrounding was eerie!!!! It was like a horror movie.. This God forsaken hotel was located at the other extreme of the road...
My heart was pumping and pounding as i walked... I was sweating at 12 deg celcius...
I was tense as in the weekends after 7 mostly drunk wastrels roamed in streets and the probability of violence was great... to make maters worse i was carrying two gadgets... somehow i managed to reach the hotel safe and return home...!!!!

But this expereince is a lesson.. i should start following the things i preached to that guy!!!!! :)
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ein hundert ein und zehn tagen..........

thats 111 days.. yep today is my nelsonth day in greater london....the tube, the London taxis, starbucks, tesco, canary wharf, stagecoaches, the thames, foyles, books etc hmm these are all my favs out here... is till remember when i first came out here on jumne the 3rd... i was waiting at LHR (Heathrow) for nearly 2 hrs for my frnds to pick me up.. well the BAA guys were staring me away as i stood in a corner with my luggage .. i was somewhat like that gopal in inscrutable mericans.. though i was not from jajau and i dint drink 17 cokes during my flight .. he he.... the first day was hectic.. the gus said raj why spend £50 on a taxi lets get you used to he tube system.... there we went.. with 38Kg of baggage moved towards the terminal 3 tube station.. well to be honest these guys dint have a clue about it... they took me to the heathrow express station from which trains directly go to Paddington (one of the busiest places in central Londres and a bomb explode here on 7/7).. well i was told that the max tube fare for a day travel tciket was £6.. but we almost fainted when we saw the heathrow xpress fare.. a whopping £17... then we moved along and atlast found the way to picadilly line station..well the plan was to get a picadilly line upto green park and then change to the jubilee line to come to starford where i was supposed to stay... alas the picadilly line was under maintenance and they had restricted services... so we got down at a god forsaken place called acton town and had to take a bus to north acton and then continue to stratford in the central line.. well the bus journey was excactly like the ones in India.. too crwded.. the only difference was it was an 18 meter long merc bus and all windows were sealed.. well before i arrived london was having a cold n wet summer.. but on june 3 it was 29 deg and it felt like 3 xtra degrees on a closed bus... from north acton to stratford the journey was cool watching all the stations and other stuff albeit the fact that most of the journney was undergrpund , the experience was nice... and central lineis too goddamn noisy....

come home arun prepared a nice dal and rice.. had it with pathak's pickle(yeah the same guy who sued PV Narasimha Rao).. the time was 4.30.. gosh my flight had landed early at 10:30.. now 6 hrs had past..... then i started sleeping.. loong sleep when i got up it was jun da 4th 7 am in londra....

the next 2 weeks in office wer pathetically awful.. had to work like hell.... then came my firstvisit to a pub in Londinium.. it was a nice exp with people asking me how i could live in aplace where i had to share the loo.. i told em TCS doesnt pay me that much to afford a kick ass flat in london.......

well i still dont feel im in a phoren land cos i bump into sardars n pakis quite often....

cappucino tall, frappucino light are my beverages here.. also the free hot chocolate from the vending machine in my floor is cool....

visits to some places in london an scotland were te tp activitis during weekend....

the best one was the vsit to the cabinet war rooms... and a stroll arnd the city of westminster....
london bus syetms cool.. u get any oyster card(monthly season ticket) for any zone on the tube .. u can travel for free across london by bus.. though travelling by train wud be restricted to the zones that ur oyster is valid for....


Fav word is TOP UP.. means recharge.. u can top up any goddamn thing here....
mobile card, oyster card(for cross zone travels), the restaurant payemnt card in office, and even electricty.. yep we have prepaid electricity hmmmm...

well a lot to come.. im now gonna to top up me with a coffee

Ramanuja and his teachings

well after seeing munnabhai part 2 i felt the relevance of gandhigiri in today's world...

people who call themselves fans & devotees of great people and who boast of following their principles in their lives are just hypocrites.... i had an encounter with one such person...

he is a great scholar .. or atleast project himself as one he he and talks n writes loads abt ramanuja the saint from sriperumbudur.... an ardent devotee of lord vishnu and patron saint of iyengars..

This ramanuja had a person by name yadavaprakasha who was a veda expert and a saivate.. Mr yadava used to ridicule lord vishnu .. yet ramanuja dint get angry as he was a GURU.... such toleramce he had.. now see the tolerance that guy showed for my small taunts....


the backgrnd is .. this X logs to yahoo 24*7 and is in BUSY moide always.. yah always...

now curiosity kils tha cat so i decided to find out the reason for ths ever busy mode.....


Me: if ur dat busy n dont want to be disturbed why dont u log off ym


Hide Recent Messages (F3)

Mr X is using a different version of Yahoo! Messenger with Voice (BETA). Certain features may be unavailable.
Mr X: my wish
Me: hmm point taken.. but it seems ur ]
Me: like vertti bandha (show off )
Mr X: get lost
Mr X: bye
Me: if ure busy u get lost dude
Mr X: what the hell do u know abt me and what i am doing now
Me: i am totally free and jobless
Mr X: u have no business to tell me that
Me: i dont give a damn
Me: ya i have no business
Mr X: i may not want to be disturbed by ppl like y
Mr X: YOU
Me: then why r u replying
Mr X: whereas with some frnds i may be free to talk
Me: if ur really dat busy u shd have ignored me
Me: why r u so excited now
Mr X: ya, its a mistake - now i am ignoring u
Mr X: get lost
Mr X: am deleting u from my friends list
Mr X: pls get lost
Me: ramanuja's teaching have no effect from u
Mr X: ha
Me: ivlo kobma moolai ku kedudhal
Me: if u have that
Mr X: u just interfere into others personal lives
Me: yah i told u im jobless
Mr X: and talk abt ramanuja
Mr X: pls go away
Me: ramanuja is not ur personal property
Mr X: he he
Mr X: i never added u to my frnds list (safedh jhoot.. he was kicked out of orkut once and he rejoined and added me )
Mr X: u must get lost now
Mr X: u r mad
Mr X: pathetic
Me: thanks
Mr X: i pity you
Mr X: go away
Me: dont raise ur BP
Me: workout ur body
Me: not ur temper
Mr X: deleted u from frnd list
Me: thanka a ton
Mr X: still am getting ur messages
Mr X: damn
Mr X: damn yahoo
Me: theres a button called ignore user
Mr X:
Me: pls do that
Me: block me
Mr X:
Me: bllock user nu oru button irkum(pls press block user )
Me: pls press that


preaching ramanuja but not even practising 1 % of his teachings.. itna gussa teek nahi babu moshai....

GET WELL SOON !!!!!

professionalism and all that

people talk a lot about professionalism these days.. but what is the definition of it?

people just dont understand anything about it.. each one of us has a perception.

some feel being cordial is professional..!!! is that so?? should i be cordial even when i know that soemone is commiting a blunder for the umpteenth time ?? as a professional should i not try to stop that??? in that process if i am a bit aggressive would i become unprofessional??

Well i dont buy that... passion toward whatever work you do is professionalism according to me.. in that process one cant be good to veryone always... but one should strike a balance between relationship in professional life and passion.... not overdoing any bit...
At the end of teh day its success in both these areas that matters....

Am I professional?? well i keep asking this.....will find answer kabhie....

Coffee

hmm i love this beverage more than anything els... ppl get addicted to it deliberately... my coffee addiction dates back to 1985.. yup .. naan 3 vayasula coffee kudika aarambichen(bole toh 3 saal ke umar se coffee pee rela hoon)....... coffee need not be piping hot but it shud have a great taste.. till abt 2003 i lived filter kaapi... breatehd kaapi..
for a short period got addicted to the chai of ahom... bas ahom ke baad no other chai managed to capture my sense....

alas from 2003 to 2006 didnt get to drink a good coffee.. puneites humiliate n insukt coffee..
they do the same thing to chai also.. dont know why they re so tasteles...

RKNarayan has written a great article abt coffee in the hindu(iyengar mama hindu padikkama valardhu irupprna?)( bole toh pakka madrasi brahman bina hindu pade bada nahi hota)

That was a too cool article...in that he elaborates abt the goodness of Filter kaapi.. please catch up with that essay on THE WRITERLY LIFE.....

But with the advent of MNC kaapi kadais (bole toh bidesi taprian)... coffee is got a new life in pune ..
Cappucino can be a distant second chioiceo if u cant get filter kaapi.. Barista n CCD are okay in that....

But London has changed my opinion.. Starbucks Cappucino is a worthy second choice to filter kaapi.. coffee at starbucks comes in 3 sizes tall grande n venti... venti size na kitta thatta SOMBHU neraya (venti lagbhag lote ke bara bar hai baap)....

frappucino light is my fav cold coffee.. slightly bitter.. but sooper..

if temp is below 23 deg then cappucino tall else frapucino tall :)

well im in serious trbl.. need to ask the mericans if there is any rehab for this ultra addiction..
they re the rehab kings....

coffee comes in has many varities .. arabica the oldest one, robusta (50% caff) caffs the best.. londoners have a decaff as well idiots.. bandhar kya jaane caff lka swaad( kazhudhaiku theriyuma caff ruchi)

apart from it we have liberica n esalica... coffe either comes from latin merica or africa... but its too popular out side :D

hmm coffee is one wonderful thing.. eat coffee , sleep coffee he he

Amma

kahin duur

Amma a nice lady imust say... all mothers are alike and have similar characteristics... how different is she??

I have seen her as one of the patient creatures ever on earth who later turned out to be the most impatient creature ever !!!!!!
She had her dreams crushed, hopes dashed yet she never complained... she could hav easily bcome another Nooyi or kalpana morparia for that matter... she wud have for sure bcome a great prof!!!!! .. her conservative grandma dint ler her study after high school given the fact that shed secured state rank in advanced maths( Ahh i doubt whether uer my Mom.. state rank !! Maths?? ) then she had married appa.. appa wasnt a bad husband but not a great one either.... then she gave birth to two idiots.. the seond one was the one who was gonna give her trbl for the next 2 decades....

she had to forget her choces her world just bcos of the fact that she got a kid who had some issues.. the docs had told her bluntly that the kid has no hopes.. she dint budge...

she is a headstrong person.. prejudiced to an extent.. and will never change her opinion about any thing.. still shes flexible....

shes too conservative yet gives way to modern ideas... boy she dint have food for 3 days when she came to see her second trbl at tvm....

she was the one who held the house together during crises.. has a cool head...

i would never be able to understand her...

though shes a bullying character i love being dominated by her.....

well i have no plans for marriage.. but if a lady is like her !!! then im readay :)

Prarambh

Hmm Well God has always tried and tested me.. I ve a starting trouble with each n everything, get comfy with it then suddenly i am made to adapt to a new situation.. lifes beena constant change for me ever sicne childhood... may be thats why i dont have any best friend who knows me perfectly or whom i know perfectly for a long time....

I look back at life as i crawl towards completing 100 days in a foriegn land.

Huh .. change after every 3-4 years is the only constant thing that my life has given me so far.... it all started off at trichy..(never know how trichy is now he he ) after being born as a second son (last as well ) and one of teh youngest in the clan I did have some previleges early on.. with all that health complications early on, i was teh apple of everyone's eyes.. All elders showered their affection on me... but that became a huge issue.. i got alienated from my own people.. people of my age, peers!!!!! Neever enjoyed a cosy time in childhood with a close frind... my best frnd and playmate was ofcourse my amma... acc to linda (goodman ) aquarian kids are shy .. yeah they are i was one for sure.. used to keep mum in school for the shorter duration that my heath permitted to attend...i was just abt 8 and in 4th when i started getting comfy n cosy with trichy and the school .. ppl had just begun to accept me.. but thunder struck... Dad was transferred to guwahati..(wheer the hell on India was that place??) i never know hindi b4 that.. only tamizh and bits n pieces of english... bro was in KV so school was no issue for him.. but me.????was put in a school that was as close as possible to home so that i can come back whenever something went wrong with my health ... btw what problem did i have... some bloody disorder which is rare .. called menigeocoele (ferkin hell) dont ask abt that...

well guwahati had lots to offer.. first n foremost that crappy place had an academic calendar which started from Jan and ended in dec..(Bhooo) when i joined 5th std it was teh goddamn half yearly exam time... had to cope up all the sylabus,hindi and a new language called assamese(yeh kya hai bhai) in just one month leave... plus english medium schools were just startups in the early 90s in guwahati.. so my school had very few students.. worse very few who cud help me out... so sad.. very bad...

the climate was also crazy.. it used to rain like hell and during winter it used to be shivering cold... again new place.. explain them abt my trbls.. shucks learn a new lang.. took me almost 7 months to settle down... and be normal.. another year and a half to feel comfy.. but yeh kya.. Dad had opted to return to home state..(aap ne aisa kyyon kiya dad... education ke liye )

I thought its gonna be either trichy or chennai where i used to frequent for meeting doctors and visiting hospitals.. but naah it was a place called kanchipuram!!! i never knew dad's org had an office thr... come kanchi again a school change.. matriculation syllabus.. gosh not again.. plus adjusting to the new place and tellin em abt me i hated this boss... bahut jhel liya...

it took almost a year now.. then came 9th.. and 10th...one of my god damn cousins had cleared teh NTSE by NCERT in his 10th.. as per tradition i was to follow suit.. that began my tryst with competitive exams which hsnt ended till date alas but with too little success..dad beleived i cud do anything as health was getting better (yenna nenappo).... the start was wonderful.. NTSE district 3rd in stage 1 ... also soem god forsaken psychiatrist had told ma parents that my IQ(bole toh akkal) was abv average (us doctor ne zaroor nakal karke pass kiya hoga)... so started my prep for the 2nd stage ... same time during model exam for 10th board i topped in my shcool.. school fellas thought that i wud get great marks inthe real boards...par kya jaundice malaria double attack .. baad mein public exam.. saala diya toh 84% mila.. i dont think that was bad.. but dad had imagined my fotos in all the crap papers so he was broken.. probably my house wud have been the first house whoch bore a funeral look even after cracking the 80%.. Amma was the coolest one.. she said porum da kanna nee public exams a confidant a face panni ivlo vaanginadhe perusu.. but appa had plans for me....he was disappointed but NOT ANGRY.. till date he has been never crossed with me even in genuine cases where e ad to get angry.....

As luck wud have it i flunked 2ns stage of NTSE.. i thought atlast i have settlked in kanchi.. but naah Chennai enterd my life... new school in 11th.. it was a shit hole..

Linda again says here that aquarians try to get some independence and make decision at teenage.. yeah i made one.. i told dad n mum that i aint going to any crappy school that curbed my free thinkng and a crappy shcool that wanted me to mug mug n mug the text book.. Dad said 12th la oru 60 % vaanga maatiya indha school la irundha.. i said FAIL AAIDUVEN..

He said ippo quarterly over da yendha school admisson kudukkum.. i said grandly dad lemme take a yr off...and learn some useful things.. But God had other plans.. one kind man took me in his shcool.. again adjustmets blah blah.. by the time 12th was over.. But that yr gave me the biggest disppointment in life.. i wanted to bcoma doctor.. whya doc?? cos they were the only ppl that i met from ma childhood constantly.. many behaved a bit rude.. and even gave probablities n chanes of my survival... i wantedto show that doc profession is all abt humanity..(munna bhai tha apan.. jaadu ki jahppi).. but being born under FC( not F**kin caste but forward caste )... i had to get 99.blajh blah.. still not able to understand why a guy who studied with me got a med seat inspite of scoring 90% just because he was MBC.. i no way he was backward.. infact he had a cosy car to transport him to the various expensive coachin classes he was enrolled to... Reservation ko goli maaro yaar..

godd god i had got 92%.. though ut was not a great feat.. twas enuf to get a free seat in some decent engg coll...


Boy how happy ma dad n mum were for that B.tech ( not balls to technology) seat...
buy kya karen.. kismat ka khel itni jaldi nahin rukta...
My health payed gilli danda and hide n seek with me n i was forced out of college for a month.. i even thought of quitting this goddamn degree n start studiyin somethin else...
Ma mum did not want that.. she was instrumental in encouraging me and pep talking me to success.. yeah i cleared I Btech with just abt the required level of attendance.. and had secured some decent marks as well......

Wow i had a dream again(main jab bhi sapna dekhta hoon wo sakar hone se koson door hota hai)
I wanted to do Mtech in IIT.. i had enrolled for gate coaching and also for CAT in ma final yr.. ek mahine theek taak classes gaya padhai ki.. par health again betrayed me.. yeh saala baar baar villian kyoon banta hai... coaching ellam mootai katti vechach...(matbal coaching gaya tel lene).. ghar to college and vaapis... no gate no cat.. exams to diya par clear nahi ki....

Somehow got selected into one helluva company in campus...(well dad mom were the happiest ones aakhir puttar ne kuch to kamyabi haasil ki)....

by the time all thse storms had blown n i was accepting chennai, ma company moved me to Pune.. aila yeh kya phir se toofan bhoochal...

the challenge ws to live alone.. hostel naam ki cheez bhai ne kabhie deka tak nahi.,,,, ma e peche peche bahaga tha 21 saal tak....

was just settled in pune ki ghar walle bhi bole beta transfer le le..
par yeh kya transfer reject hi gaya.. then maine socha ... lets enjoy freedom.. the real aquarian got unl;eashed... alone ina flat with all applicances.. a decent salary to buy the gadget i wanted.. one great city to live in... par sapna toot gaya.. aa gaya London...

thou its a great place.. adjust ments abhi tak kar raha honn.. i pray god that i feel comfy soon so that i can move out to meet next challenge... kahin duur..........