thats 111 days.. yep today is my nelsonth day in greater london....the tube, the London taxis, starbucks, tesco, canary wharf, stagecoaches, the thames, foyles, books etc hmm these are all my favs out here... is till remember when i first came out here on jumne the 3rd... i was waiting at LHR (Heathrow) for nearly 2 hrs for my frnds to pick me up.. well the BAA guys were staring me away as i stood in a corner with my luggage .. i was somewhat like that gopal in inscrutable mericans.. though i was not from jajau and i dint drink 17 cokes during my flight .. he he.... the first day was hectic.. the gus said raj why spend £50 on a taxi lets get you used to he tube system.... there we went.. with 38Kg of baggage moved towards the terminal 3 tube station.. well to be honest these guys dint have a clue about it... they took me to the heathrow express station from which trains directly go to Paddington (one of the busiest places in central Londres and a bomb explode here on 7/7).. well i was told that the max tube fare for a day travel tciket was £6.. but we almost fainted when we saw the heathrow xpress fare.. a whopping £17... then we moved along and atlast found the way to picadilly line station..well the plan was to get a picadilly line upto green park and then change to the jubilee line to come to starford where i was supposed to stay... alas the picadilly line was under maintenance and they had restricted services... so we got down at a god forsaken place called acton town and had to take a bus to north acton and then continue to stratford in the central line.. well the bus journey was excactly like the ones in India.. too crwded.. the only difference was it was an 18 meter long merc bus and all windows were sealed.. well before i arrived london was having a cold n wet summer.. but on june 3 it was 29 deg and it felt like 3 xtra degrees on a closed bus... from north acton to stratford the journey was cool watching all the stations and other stuff albeit the fact that most of the journney was undergrpund , the experience was nice... and central lineis too goddamn noisy....
come home arun prepared a nice dal and rice.. had it with pathak's pickle(yeah the same guy who sued PV Narasimha Rao).. the time was 4.30.. gosh my flight had landed early at 10:30.. now 6 hrs had past..... then i started sleeping.. loong sleep when i got up it was jun da 4th 7 am in londra....
the next 2 weeks in office wer pathetically awful.. had to work like hell.... then came my firstvisit to a pub in Londinium.. it was a nice exp with people asking me how i could live in aplace where i had to share the loo.. i told em TCS doesnt pay me that much to afford a kick ass flat in london.......
well i still dont feel im in a phoren land cos i bump into sardars n pakis quite often....
cappucino tall, frappucino light are my beverages here.. also the free hot chocolate from the vending machine in my floor is cool....
visits to some places in london an scotland were te tp activitis during weekend....
the best one was the vsit to the cabinet war rooms... and a stroll arnd the city of westminster....
london bus syetms cool.. u get any oyster card(monthly season ticket) for any zone on the tube .. u can travel for free across london by bus.. though travelling by train wud be restricted to the zones that ur oyster is valid for....
Fav word is TOP UP.. means recharge.. u can top up any goddamn thing here....
mobile card, oyster card(for cross zone travels), the restaurant payemnt card in office, and even electricty.. yep we have prepaid electricity hmmmm...
well a lot to come.. im now gonna to top up me with a coffee
Friday, September 22, 2006
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Ramanuja and his teachings
well after seeing munnabhai part 2 i felt the relevance of gandhigiri in today's world...
people who call themselves fans & devotees of great people and who boast of following their principles in their lives are just hypocrites.... i had an encounter with one such person...
he is a great scholar .. or atleast project himself as one he he and talks n writes loads abt ramanuja the saint from sriperumbudur.... an ardent devotee of lord vishnu and patron saint of iyengars..
This ramanuja had a person by name yadavaprakasha who was a veda expert and a saivate.. Mr yadava used to ridicule lord vishnu .. yet ramanuja dint get angry as he was a GURU.... such toleramce he had.. now see the tolerance that guy showed for my small taunts....
the backgrnd is .. this X logs to yahoo 24*7 and is in BUSY moide always.. yah always...
now curiosity kils tha cat so i decided to find out the reason for ths ever busy mode.....
Me: if ur dat busy n dont want to be disturbed why dont u log off ym
Hide Recent Messages (F3)
Mr X is using a different version of Yahoo! Messenger with Voice (BETA). Certain features may be unavailable.
Mr X: my wish
Me: hmm point taken.. but it seems ur ]
Me: like vertti bandha (show off )
Mr X: get lost
Mr X: bye
Me: if ure busy u get lost dude
Mr X: what the hell do u know abt me and what i am doing now
Me: i am totally free and jobless
Mr X: u have no business to tell me that
Me: i dont give a damn
Me: ya i have no business
Mr X: i may not want to be disturbed by ppl like y
Mr X: YOU
Me: then why r u replying
Mr X: whereas with some frnds i may be free to talk
Me: if ur really dat busy u shd have ignored me
Me: why r u so excited now
Mr X: ya, its a mistake - now i am ignoring u
Mr X: get lost
Mr X: am deleting u from my friends list
Mr X: pls get lost
Me: ramanuja's teaching have no effect from u
Mr X: ha
Me: ivlo kobma moolai ku kedudhal
Me: if u have that
Mr X: u just interfere into others personal lives
Me: yah i told u im jobless
Mr X: and talk abt ramanuja
Mr X: pls go away
Me: ramanuja is not ur personal property
Mr X: he he
Mr X: i never added u to my frnds list (safedh jhoot.. he was kicked out of orkut once and he rejoined and added me )
Mr X: u must get lost now
Mr X: u r mad
Mr X: pathetic
Me: thanks
Mr X: i pity you
Mr X: go away
Me: dont raise ur BP
Me: workout ur body
Me: not ur temper
Mr X: deleted u from frnd list
Me: thanka a ton
Mr X: still am getting ur messages
Mr X: damn
Mr X: damn yahoo
Me: theres a button called ignore user
Mr X:
Me: pls do that
Me: block me
Mr X:
Me: bllock user nu oru button irkum(pls press block user )
Me: pls press that
preaching ramanuja but not even practising 1 % of his teachings.. itna gussa teek nahi babu moshai....
GET WELL SOON !!!!!
people who call themselves fans & devotees of great people and who boast of following their principles in their lives are just hypocrites.... i had an encounter with one such person...
he is a great scholar .. or atleast project himself as one he he and talks n writes loads abt ramanuja the saint from sriperumbudur.... an ardent devotee of lord vishnu and patron saint of iyengars..
This ramanuja had a person by name yadavaprakasha who was a veda expert and a saivate.. Mr yadava used to ridicule lord vishnu .. yet ramanuja dint get angry as he was a GURU.... such toleramce he had.. now see the tolerance that guy showed for my small taunts....
the backgrnd is .. this X logs to yahoo 24*7 and is in BUSY moide always.. yah always...
now curiosity kils tha cat so i decided to find out the reason for ths ever busy mode.....
Me: if ur dat busy n dont want to be disturbed why dont u log off ym
Hide Recent Messages (F3)
Mr X is using a different version of Yahoo! Messenger with Voice (BETA). Certain features may be unavailable.
Mr X: my wish
Me: hmm point taken.. but it seems ur ]
Me: like vertti bandha (show off )
Mr X: get lost
Mr X: bye
Me: if ure busy u get lost dude
Mr X: what the hell do u know abt me and what i am doing now
Me: i am totally free and jobless
Mr X: u have no business to tell me that
Me: i dont give a damn
Me: ya i have no business
Mr X: i may not want to be disturbed by ppl like y
Mr X: YOU
Me: then why r u replying
Mr X: whereas with some frnds i may be free to talk
Me: if ur really dat busy u shd have ignored me
Me: why r u so excited now
Mr X: ya, its a mistake - now i am ignoring u
Mr X: get lost
Mr X: am deleting u from my friends list
Mr X: pls get lost
Me: ramanuja's teaching have no effect from u
Mr X: ha
Me: ivlo kobma moolai ku kedudhal
Me: if u have that
Mr X: u just interfere into others personal lives
Me: yah i told u im jobless
Mr X: and talk abt ramanuja
Mr X: pls go away
Me: ramanuja is not ur personal property
Mr X: he he
Mr X: i never added u to my frnds list (safedh jhoot.. he was kicked out of orkut once and he rejoined and added me )
Mr X: u must get lost now
Mr X: u r mad
Mr X: pathetic
Me: thanks
Mr X: i pity you
Mr X: go away
Me: dont raise ur BP
Me: workout ur body
Me: not ur temper
Mr X: deleted u from frnd list
Me: thanka a ton
Mr X: still am getting ur messages
Mr X: damn
Mr X: damn yahoo
Me: theres a button called ignore user
Mr X:
Me: pls do that
Me: block me
Mr X:
Me: bllock user nu oru button irkum(pls press block user )
Me: pls press that
preaching ramanuja but not even practising 1 % of his teachings.. itna gussa teek nahi babu moshai....
GET WELL SOON !!!!!
Saturday, September 16, 2006
professionalism and all that
people talk a lot about professionalism these days.. but what is the definition of it?
people just dont understand anything about it.. each one of us has a perception.
some feel being cordial is professional..!!! is that so?? should i be cordial even when i know that soemone is commiting a blunder for the umpteenth time ?? as a professional should i not try to stop that??? in that process if i am a bit aggressive would i become unprofessional??
Well i dont buy that... passion toward whatever work you do is professionalism according to me.. in that process one cant be good to veryone always... but one should strike a balance between relationship in professional life and passion.... not overdoing any bit...
At the end of teh day its success in both these areas that matters....
Am I professional?? well i keep asking this.....will find answer kabhie....
people just dont understand anything about it.. each one of us has a perception.
some feel being cordial is professional..!!! is that so?? should i be cordial even when i know that soemone is commiting a blunder for the umpteenth time ?? as a professional should i not try to stop that??? in that process if i am a bit aggressive would i become unprofessional??
Well i dont buy that... passion toward whatever work you do is professionalism according to me.. in that process one cant be good to veryone always... but one should strike a balance between relationship in professional life and passion.... not overdoing any bit...
At the end of teh day its success in both these areas that matters....
Am I professional?? well i keep asking this.....will find answer kabhie....
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Coffee
hmm i love this beverage more than anything els... ppl get addicted to it deliberately... my coffee addiction dates back to 1985.. yup .. naan 3 vayasula coffee kudika aarambichen(bole toh 3 saal ke umar se coffee pee rela hoon)....... coffee need not be piping hot but it shud have a great taste.. till abt 2003 i lived filter kaapi... breatehd kaapi..
for a short period got addicted to the chai of ahom... bas ahom ke baad no other chai managed to capture my sense....
alas from 2003 to 2006 didnt get to drink a good coffee.. puneites humiliate n insukt coffee..
they do the same thing to chai also.. dont know why they re so tasteles...
RKNarayan has written a great article abt coffee in the hindu(iyengar mama hindu padikkama valardhu irupprna?)( bole toh pakka madrasi brahman bina hindu pade bada nahi hota)
That was a too cool article...in that he elaborates abt the goodness of Filter kaapi.. please catch up with that essay on THE WRITERLY LIFE.....
But with the advent of MNC kaapi kadais (bole toh bidesi taprian)... coffee is got a new life in pune ..
Cappucino can be a distant second chioiceo if u cant get filter kaapi.. Barista n CCD are okay in that....
But London has changed my opinion.. Starbucks Cappucino is a worthy second choice to filter kaapi.. coffee at starbucks comes in 3 sizes tall grande n venti... venti size na kitta thatta SOMBHU neraya (venti lagbhag lote ke bara bar hai baap)....
frappucino light is my fav cold coffee.. slightly bitter.. but sooper..
if temp is below 23 deg then cappucino tall else frapucino tall :)
well im in serious trbl.. need to ask the mericans if there is any rehab for this ultra addiction..
they re the rehab kings....
coffee comes in has many varities .. arabica the oldest one, robusta (50% caff) caffs the best.. londoners have a decaff as well idiots.. bandhar kya jaane caff lka swaad( kazhudhaiku theriyuma caff ruchi)
apart from it we have liberica n esalica... coffe either comes from latin merica or africa... but its too popular out side :D
hmm coffee is one wonderful thing.. eat coffee , sleep coffee he he
for a short period got addicted to the chai of ahom... bas ahom ke baad no other chai managed to capture my sense....
alas from 2003 to 2006 didnt get to drink a good coffee.. puneites humiliate n insukt coffee..
they do the same thing to chai also.. dont know why they re so tasteles...
RKNarayan has written a great article abt coffee in the hindu(iyengar mama hindu padikkama valardhu irupprna?)( bole toh pakka madrasi brahman bina hindu pade bada nahi hota)
That was a too cool article...in that he elaborates abt the goodness of Filter kaapi.. please catch up with that essay on THE WRITERLY LIFE.....
But with the advent of MNC kaapi kadais (bole toh bidesi taprian)... coffee is got a new life in pune ..
Cappucino can be a distant second chioiceo if u cant get filter kaapi.. Barista n CCD are okay in that....
But London has changed my opinion.. Starbucks Cappucino is a worthy second choice to filter kaapi.. coffee at starbucks comes in 3 sizes tall grande n venti... venti size na kitta thatta SOMBHU neraya (venti lagbhag lote ke bara bar hai baap)....
frappucino light is my fav cold coffee.. slightly bitter.. but sooper..
if temp is below 23 deg then cappucino tall else frapucino tall :)
well im in serious trbl.. need to ask the mericans if there is any rehab for this ultra addiction..
they re the rehab kings....
coffee comes in has many varities .. arabica the oldest one, robusta (50% caff) caffs the best.. londoners have a decaff as well idiots.. bandhar kya jaane caff lka swaad( kazhudhaiku theriyuma caff ruchi)
apart from it we have liberica n esalica... coffe either comes from latin merica or africa... but its too popular out side :D
hmm coffee is one wonderful thing.. eat coffee , sleep coffee he he
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Amma
kahin duur
Amma a nice lady imust say... all mothers are alike and have similar characteristics... how different is she??
I have seen her as one of the patient creatures ever on earth who later turned out to be the most impatient creature ever !!!!!!
She had her dreams crushed, hopes dashed yet she never complained... she could hav easily bcome another Nooyi or kalpana morparia for that matter... she wud have for sure bcome a great prof!!!!! .. her conservative grandma dint ler her study after high school given the fact that shed secured state rank in advanced maths( Ahh i doubt whether uer my Mom.. state rank !! Maths?? ) then she had married appa.. appa wasnt a bad husband but not a great one either.... then she gave birth to two idiots.. the seond one was the one who was gonna give her trbl for the next 2 decades....
she had to forget her choces her world just bcos of the fact that she got a kid who had some issues.. the docs had told her bluntly that the kid has no hopes.. she dint budge...
she is a headstrong person.. prejudiced to an extent.. and will never change her opinion about any thing.. still shes flexible....
shes too conservative yet gives way to modern ideas... boy she dint have food for 3 days when she came to see her second trbl at tvm....
she was the one who held the house together during crises.. has a cool head...
i would never be able to understand her...
though shes a bullying character i love being dominated by her.....
well i have no plans for marriage.. but if a lady is like her !!! then im readay :)
Amma a nice lady imust say... all mothers are alike and have similar characteristics... how different is she??
I have seen her as one of the patient creatures ever on earth who later turned out to be the most impatient creature ever !!!!!!
She had her dreams crushed, hopes dashed yet she never complained... she could hav easily bcome another Nooyi or kalpana morparia for that matter... she wud have for sure bcome a great prof!!!!! .. her conservative grandma dint ler her study after high school given the fact that shed secured state rank in advanced maths( Ahh i doubt whether uer my Mom.. state rank !! Maths?? ) then she had married appa.. appa wasnt a bad husband but not a great one either.... then she gave birth to two idiots.. the seond one was the one who was gonna give her trbl for the next 2 decades....
she had to forget her choces her world just bcos of the fact that she got a kid who had some issues.. the docs had told her bluntly that the kid has no hopes.. she dint budge...
she is a headstrong person.. prejudiced to an extent.. and will never change her opinion about any thing.. still shes flexible....
shes too conservative yet gives way to modern ideas... boy she dint have food for 3 days when she came to see her second trbl at tvm....
she was the one who held the house together during crises.. has a cool head...
i would never be able to understand her...
though shes a bullying character i love being dominated by her.....
well i have no plans for marriage.. but if a lady is like her !!! then im readay :)
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Prarambh
Hmm Well God has always tried and tested me.. I ve a starting trouble with each n everything, get comfy with it then suddenly i am made to adapt to a new situation.. lifes beena constant change for me ever sicne childhood... may be thats why i dont have any best friend who knows me perfectly or whom i know perfectly for a long time....
I look back at life as i crawl towards completing 100 days in a foriegn land.
Huh .. change after every 3-4 years is the only constant thing that my life has given me so far.... it all started off at trichy..(never know how trichy is now he he ) after being born as a second son (last as well ) and one of teh youngest in the clan I did have some previleges early on.. with all that health complications early on, i was teh apple of everyone's eyes.. All elders showered their affection on me... but that became a huge issue.. i got alienated from my own people.. people of my age, peers!!!!! Neever enjoyed a cosy time in childhood with a close frind... my best frnd and playmate was ofcourse my amma... acc to linda (goodman ) aquarian kids are shy .. yeah they are i was one for sure.. used to keep mum in school for the shorter duration that my heath permitted to attend...i was just abt 8 and in 4th when i started getting comfy n cosy with trichy and the school .. ppl had just begun to accept me.. but thunder struck... Dad was transferred to guwahati..(wheer the hell on India was that place??) i never know hindi b4 that.. only tamizh and bits n pieces of english... bro was in KV so school was no issue for him.. but me.????was put in a school that was as close as possible to home so that i can come back whenever something went wrong with my health ... btw what problem did i have... some bloody disorder which is rare .. called menigeocoele (ferkin hell) dont ask abt that...
well guwahati had lots to offer.. first n foremost that crappy place had an academic calendar which started from Jan and ended in dec..(Bhooo) when i joined 5th std it was teh goddamn half yearly exam time... had to cope up all the sylabus,hindi and a new language called assamese(yeh kya hai bhai) in just one month leave... plus english medium schools were just startups in the early 90s in guwahati.. so my school had very few students.. worse very few who cud help me out... so sad.. very bad...
the climate was also crazy.. it used to rain like hell and during winter it used to be shivering cold... again new place.. explain them abt my trbls.. shucks learn a new lang.. took me almost 7 months to settle down... and be normal.. another year and a half to feel comfy.. but yeh kya.. Dad had opted to return to home state..(aap ne aisa kyyon kiya dad... education ke liye )
I thought its gonna be either trichy or chennai where i used to frequent for meeting doctors and visiting hospitals.. but naah it was a place called kanchipuram!!! i never knew dad's org had an office thr... come kanchi again a school change.. matriculation syllabus.. gosh not again.. plus adjusting to the new place and tellin em abt me i hated this boss... bahut jhel liya...
it took almost a year now.. then came 9th.. and 10th...one of my god damn cousins had cleared teh NTSE by NCERT in his 10th.. as per tradition i was to follow suit.. that began my tryst with competitive exams which hsnt ended till date alas but with too little success..dad beleived i cud do anything as health was getting better (yenna nenappo).... the start was wonderful.. NTSE district 3rd in stage 1 ... also soem god forsaken psychiatrist had told ma parents that my IQ(bole toh akkal) was abv average (us doctor ne zaroor nakal karke pass kiya hoga)... so started my prep for the 2nd stage ... same time during model exam for 10th board i topped in my shcool.. school fellas thought that i wud get great marks inthe real boards...par kya jaundice malaria double attack .. baad mein public exam.. saala diya toh 84% mila.. i dont think that was bad.. but dad had imagined my fotos in all the crap papers so he was broken.. probably my house wud have been the first house whoch bore a funeral look even after cracking the 80%.. Amma was the coolest one.. she said porum da kanna nee public exams a confidant a face panni ivlo vaanginadhe perusu.. but appa had plans for me....he was disappointed but NOT ANGRY.. till date he has been never crossed with me even in genuine cases where e ad to get angry.....
As luck wud have it i flunked 2ns stage of NTSE.. i thought atlast i have settlked in kanchi.. but naah Chennai enterd my life... new school in 11th.. it was a shit hole..
Linda again says here that aquarians try to get some independence and make decision at teenage.. yeah i made one.. i told dad n mum that i aint going to any crappy school that curbed my free thinkng and a crappy shcool that wanted me to mug mug n mug the text book.. Dad said 12th la oru 60 % vaanga maatiya indha school la irundha.. i said FAIL AAIDUVEN..
He said ippo quarterly over da yendha school admisson kudukkum.. i said grandly dad lemme take a yr off...and learn some useful things.. But God had other plans.. one kind man took me in his shcool.. again adjustmets blah blah.. by the time 12th was over.. But that yr gave me the biggest disppointment in life.. i wanted to bcoma doctor.. whya doc?? cos they were the only ppl that i met from ma childhood constantly.. many behaved a bit rude.. and even gave probablities n chanes of my survival... i wantedto show that doc profession is all abt humanity..(munna bhai tha apan.. jaadu ki jahppi).. but being born under FC( not F**kin caste but forward caste )... i had to get 99.blajh blah.. still not able to understand why a guy who studied with me got a med seat inspite of scoring 90% just because he was MBC.. i no way he was backward.. infact he had a cosy car to transport him to the various expensive coachin classes he was enrolled to... Reservation ko goli maaro yaar..
godd god i had got 92%.. though ut was not a great feat.. twas enuf to get a free seat in some decent engg coll...
Boy how happy ma dad n mum were for that B.tech ( not balls to technology) seat...
buy kya karen.. kismat ka khel itni jaldi nahin rukta...
My health payed gilli danda and hide n seek with me n i was forced out of college for a month.. i even thought of quitting this goddamn degree n start studiyin somethin else...
Ma mum did not want that.. she was instrumental in encouraging me and pep talking me to success.. yeah i cleared I Btech with just abt the required level of attendance.. and had secured some decent marks as well......
Wow i had a dream again(main jab bhi sapna dekhta hoon wo sakar hone se koson door hota hai)
I wanted to do Mtech in IIT.. i had enrolled for gate coaching and also for CAT in ma final yr.. ek mahine theek taak classes gaya padhai ki.. par health again betrayed me.. yeh saala baar baar villian kyoon banta hai... coaching ellam mootai katti vechach...(matbal coaching gaya tel lene).. ghar to college and vaapis... no gate no cat.. exams to diya par clear nahi ki....
Somehow got selected into one helluva company in campus...(well dad mom were the happiest ones aakhir puttar ne kuch to kamyabi haasil ki)....
by the time all thse storms had blown n i was accepting chennai, ma company moved me to Pune.. aila yeh kya phir se toofan bhoochal...
the challenge ws to live alone.. hostel naam ki cheez bhai ne kabhie deka tak nahi.,,,, ma e peche peche bahaga tha 21 saal tak....
was just settled in pune ki ghar walle bhi bole beta transfer le le..
par yeh kya transfer reject hi gaya.. then maine socha ... lets enjoy freedom.. the real aquarian got unl;eashed... alone ina flat with all applicances.. a decent salary to buy the gadget i wanted.. one great city to live in... par sapna toot gaya.. aa gaya London...
thou its a great place.. adjust ments abhi tak kar raha honn.. i pray god that i feel comfy soon so that i can move out to meet next challenge... kahin duur..........
I look back at life as i crawl towards completing 100 days in a foriegn land.
Huh .. change after every 3-4 years is the only constant thing that my life has given me so far.... it all started off at trichy..(never know how trichy is now he he ) after being born as a second son (last as well ) and one of teh youngest in the clan I did have some previleges early on.. with all that health complications early on, i was teh apple of everyone's eyes.. All elders showered their affection on me... but that became a huge issue.. i got alienated from my own people.. people of my age, peers!!!!! Neever enjoyed a cosy time in childhood with a close frind... my best frnd and playmate was ofcourse my amma... acc to linda (goodman ) aquarian kids are shy .. yeah they are i was one for sure.. used to keep mum in school for the shorter duration that my heath permitted to attend...i was just abt 8 and in 4th when i started getting comfy n cosy with trichy and the school .. ppl had just begun to accept me.. but thunder struck... Dad was transferred to guwahati..(wheer the hell on India was that place??) i never know hindi b4 that.. only tamizh and bits n pieces of english... bro was in KV so school was no issue for him.. but me.????was put in a school that was as close as possible to home so that i can come back whenever something went wrong with my health ... btw what problem did i have... some bloody disorder which is rare .. called menigeocoele (ferkin hell) dont ask abt that...
well guwahati had lots to offer.. first n foremost that crappy place had an academic calendar which started from Jan and ended in dec..(Bhooo) when i joined 5th std it was teh goddamn half yearly exam time... had to cope up all the sylabus,hindi and a new language called assamese(yeh kya hai bhai) in just one month leave... plus english medium schools were just startups in the early 90s in guwahati.. so my school had very few students.. worse very few who cud help me out... so sad.. very bad...
the climate was also crazy.. it used to rain like hell and during winter it used to be shivering cold... again new place.. explain them abt my trbls.. shucks learn a new lang.. took me almost 7 months to settle down... and be normal.. another year and a half to feel comfy.. but yeh kya.. Dad had opted to return to home state..(aap ne aisa kyyon kiya dad... education ke liye )
I thought its gonna be either trichy or chennai where i used to frequent for meeting doctors and visiting hospitals.. but naah it was a place called kanchipuram!!! i never knew dad's org had an office thr... come kanchi again a school change.. matriculation syllabus.. gosh not again.. plus adjusting to the new place and tellin em abt me i hated this boss... bahut jhel liya...
it took almost a year now.. then came 9th.. and 10th...one of my god damn cousins had cleared teh NTSE by NCERT in his 10th.. as per tradition i was to follow suit.. that began my tryst with competitive exams which hsnt ended till date alas but with too little success..dad beleived i cud do anything as health was getting better (yenna nenappo).... the start was wonderful.. NTSE district 3rd in stage 1 ... also soem god forsaken psychiatrist had told ma parents that my IQ(bole toh akkal) was abv average (us doctor ne zaroor nakal karke pass kiya hoga)... so started my prep for the 2nd stage ... same time during model exam for 10th board i topped in my shcool.. school fellas thought that i wud get great marks inthe real boards...par kya jaundice malaria double attack .. baad mein public exam.. saala diya toh 84% mila.. i dont think that was bad.. but dad had imagined my fotos in all the crap papers so he was broken.. probably my house wud have been the first house whoch bore a funeral look even after cracking the 80%.. Amma was the coolest one.. she said porum da kanna nee public exams a confidant a face panni ivlo vaanginadhe perusu.. but appa had plans for me....he was disappointed but NOT ANGRY.. till date he has been never crossed with me even in genuine cases where e ad to get angry.....
As luck wud have it i flunked 2ns stage of NTSE.. i thought atlast i have settlked in kanchi.. but naah Chennai enterd my life... new school in 11th.. it was a shit hole..
Linda again says here that aquarians try to get some independence and make decision at teenage.. yeah i made one.. i told dad n mum that i aint going to any crappy school that curbed my free thinkng and a crappy shcool that wanted me to mug mug n mug the text book.. Dad said 12th la oru 60 % vaanga maatiya indha school la irundha.. i said FAIL AAIDUVEN..
He said ippo quarterly over da yendha school admisson kudukkum.. i said grandly dad lemme take a yr off...and learn some useful things.. But God had other plans.. one kind man took me in his shcool.. again adjustmets blah blah.. by the time 12th was over.. But that yr gave me the biggest disppointment in life.. i wanted to bcoma doctor.. whya doc?? cos they were the only ppl that i met from ma childhood constantly.. many behaved a bit rude.. and even gave probablities n chanes of my survival... i wantedto show that doc profession is all abt humanity..(munna bhai tha apan.. jaadu ki jahppi).. but being born under FC( not F**kin caste but forward caste )... i had to get 99.blajh blah.. still not able to understand why a guy who studied with me got a med seat inspite of scoring 90% just because he was MBC.. i no way he was backward.. infact he had a cosy car to transport him to the various expensive coachin classes he was enrolled to... Reservation ko goli maaro yaar..
godd god i had got 92%.. though ut was not a great feat.. twas enuf to get a free seat in some decent engg coll...
Boy how happy ma dad n mum were for that B.tech ( not balls to technology) seat...
buy kya karen.. kismat ka khel itni jaldi nahin rukta...
My health payed gilli danda and hide n seek with me n i was forced out of college for a month.. i even thought of quitting this goddamn degree n start studiyin somethin else...
Ma mum did not want that.. she was instrumental in encouraging me and pep talking me to success.. yeah i cleared I Btech with just abt the required level of attendance.. and had secured some decent marks as well......
Wow i had a dream again(main jab bhi sapna dekhta hoon wo sakar hone se koson door hota hai)
I wanted to do Mtech in IIT.. i had enrolled for gate coaching and also for CAT in ma final yr.. ek mahine theek taak classes gaya padhai ki.. par health again betrayed me.. yeh saala baar baar villian kyoon banta hai... coaching ellam mootai katti vechach...(matbal coaching gaya tel lene).. ghar to college and vaapis... no gate no cat.. exams to diya par clear nahi ki....
Somehow got selected into one helluva company in campus...(well dad mom were the happiest ones aakhir puttar ne kuch to kamyabi haasil ki)....
by the time all thse storms had blown n i was accepting chennai, ma company moved me to Pune.. aila yeh kya phir se toofan bhoochal...
the challenge ws to live alone.. hostel naam ki cheez bhai ne kabhie deka tak nahi.,,,, ma e peche peche bahaga tha 21 saal tak....
was just settled in pune ki ghar walle bhi bole beta transfer le le..
par yeh kya transfer reject hi gaya.. then maine socha ... lets enjoy freedom.. the real aquarian got unl;eashed... alone ina flat with all applicances.. a decent salary to buy the gadget i wanted.. one great city to live in... par sapna toot gaya.. aa gaya London...
thou its a great place.. adjust ments abhi tak kar raha honn.. i pray god that i feel comfy soon so that i can move out to meet next challenge... kahin duur..........
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