Prarambh

Hmm Well God has always tried and tested me.. I ve a starting trouble with each n everything, get comfy with it then suddenly i am made to adapt to a new situation.. lifes beena constant change for me ever sicne childhood... may be thats why i dont have any best friend who knows me perfectly or whom i know perfectly for a long time....

I look back at life as i crawl towards completing 100 days in a foriegn land.

Huh .. change after every 3-4 years is the only constant thing that my life has given me so far.... it all started off at trichy..(never know how trichy is now he he ) after being born as a second son (last as well ) and one of teh youngest in the clan I did have some previleges early on.. with all that health complications early on, i was teh apple of everyone's eyes.. All elders showered their affection on me... but that became a huge issue.. i got alienated from my own people.. people of my age, peers!!!!! Neever enjoyed a cosy time in childhood with a close frind... my best frnd and playmate was ofcourse my amma... acc to linda (goodman ) aquarian kids are shy .. yeah they are i was one for sure.. used to keep mum in school for the shorter duration that my heath permitted to attend...i was just abt 8 and in 4th when i started getting comfy n cosy with trichy and the school .. ppl had just begun to accept me.. but thunder struck... Dad was transferred to guwahati..(wheer the hell on India was that place??) i never know hindi b4 that.. only tamizh and bits n pieces of english... bro was in KV so school was no issue for him.. but me.????was put in a school that was as close as possible to home so that i can come back whenever something went wrong with my health ... btw what problem did i have... some bloody disorder which is rare .. called menigeocoele (ferkin hell) dont ask abt that...

well guwahati had lots to offer.. first n foremost that crappy place had an academic calendar which started from Jan and ended in dec..(Bhooo) when i joined 5th std it was teh goddamn half yearly exam time... had to cope up all the sylabus,hindi and a new language called assamese(yeh kya hai bhai) in just one month leave... plus english medium schools were just startups in the early 90s in guwahati.. so my school had very few students.. worse very few who cud help me out... so sad.. very bad...

the climate was also crazy.. it used to rain like hell and during winter it used to be shivering cold... again new place.. explain them abt my trbls.. shucks learn a new lang.. took me almost 7 months to settle down... and be normal.. another year and a half to feel comfy.. but yeh kya.. Dad had opted to return to home state..(aap ne aisa kyyon kiya dad... education ke liye )

I thought its gonna be either trichy or chennai where i used to frequent for meeting doctors and visiting hospitals.. but naah it was a place called kanchipuram!!! i never knew dad's org had an office thr... come kanchi again a school change.. matriculation syllabus.. gosh not again.. plus adjusting to the new place and tellin em abt me i hated this boss... bahut jhel liya...

it took almost a year now.. then came 9th.. and 10th...one of my god damn cousins had cleared teh NTSE by NCERT in his 10th.. as per tradition i was to follow suit.. that began my tryst with competitive exams which hsnt ended till date alas but with too little success..dad beleived i cud do anything as health was getting better (yenna nenappo).... the start was wonderful.. NTSE district 3rd in stage 1 ... also soem god forsaken psychiatrist had told ma parents that my IQ(bole toh akkal) was abv average (us doctor ne zaroor nakal karke pass kiya hoga)... so started my prep for the 2nd stage ... same time during model exam for 10th board i topped in my shcool.. school fellas thought that i wud get great marks inthe real boards...par kya jaundice malaria double attack .. baad mein public exam.. saala diya toh 84% mila.. i dont think that was bad.. but dad had imagined my fotos in all the crap papers so he was broken.. probably my house wud have been the first house whoch bore a funeral look even after cracking the 80%.. Amma was the coolest one.. she said porum da kanna nee public exams a confidant a face panni ivlo vaanginadhe perusu.. but appa had plans for me....he was disappointed but NOT ANGRY.. till date he has been never crossed with me even in genuine cases where e ad to get angry.....

As luck wud have it i flunked 2ns stage of NTSE.. i thought atlast i have settlked in kanchi.. but naah Chennai enterd my life... new school in 11th.. it was a shit hole..

Linda again says here that aquarians try to get some independence and make decision at teenage.. yeah i made one.. i told dad n mum that i aint going to any crappy school that curbed my free thinkng and a crappy shcool that wanted me to mug mug n mug the text book.. Dad said 12th la oru 60 % vaanga maatiya indha school la irundha.. i said FAIL AAIDUVEN..

He said ippo quarterly over da yendha school admisson kudukkum.. i said grandly dad lemme take a yr off...and learn some useful things.. But God had other plans.. one kind man took me in his shcool.. again adjustmets blah blah.. by the time 12th was over.. But that yr gave me the biggest disppointment in life.. i wanted to bcoma doctor.. whya doc?? cos they were the only ppl that i met from ma childhood constantly.. many behaved a bit rude.. and even gave probablities n chanes of my survival... i wantedto show that doc profession is all abt humanity..(munna bhai tha apan.. jaadu ki jahppi).. but being born under FC( not F**kin caste but forward caste )... i had to get 99.blajh blah.. still not able to understand why a guy who studied with me got a med seat inspite of scoring 90% just because he was MBC.. i no way he was backward.. infact he had a cosy car to transport him to the various expensive coachin classes he was enrolled to... Reservation ko goli maaro yaar..

godd god i had got 92%.. though ut was not a great feat.. twas enuf to get a free seat in some decent engg coll...


Boy how happy ma dad n mum were for that B.tech ( not balls to technology) seat...
buy kya karen.. kismat ka khel itni jaldi nahin rukta...
My health payed gilli danda and hide n seek with me n i was forced out of college for a month.. i even thought of quitting this goddamn degree n start studiyin somethin else...
Ma mum did not want that.. she was instrumental in encouraging me and pep talking me to success.. yeah i cleared I Btech with just abt the required level of attendance.. and had secured some decent marks as well......

Wow i had a dream again(main jab bhi sapna dekhta hoon wo sakar hone se koson door hota hai)
I wanted to do Mtech in IIT.. i had enrolled for gate coaching and also for CAT in ma final yr.. ek mahine theek taak classes gaya padhai ki.. par health again betrayed me.. yeh saala baar baar villian kyoon banta hai... coaching ellam mootai katti vechach...(matbal coaching gaya tel lene).. ghar to college and vaapis... no gate no cat.. exams to diya par clear nahi ki....

Somehow got selected into one helluva company in campus...(well dad mom were the happiest ones aakhir puttar ne kuch to kamyabi haasil ki)....

by the time all thse storms had blown n i was accepting chennai, ma company moved me to Pune.. aila yeh kya phir se toofan bhoochal...

the challenge ws to live alone.. hostel naam ki cheez bhai ne kabhie deka tak nahi.,,,, ma e peche peche bahaga tha 21 saal tak....

was just settled in pune ki ghar walle bhi bole beta transfer le le..
par yeh kya transfer reject hi gaya.. then maine socha ... lets enjoy freedom.. the real aquarian got unl;eashed... alone ina flat with all applicances.. a decent salary to buy the gadget i wanted.. one great city to live in... par sapna toot gaya.. aa gaya London...

thou its a great place.. adjust ments abhi tak kar raha honn.. i pray god that i feel comfy soon so that i can move out to meet next challenge... kahin duur..........